well, well

As Annie Hall would say...la dee da.

If that was her use of the English language when she was uncomfortable or didn't quite know what to say, I think that it's fitting right about now. How life can change in a couple of months. I've never been one to be under the delusion that I will remain consistent in my opinions or viewpoints. And, as I am reminded on a daily basis, "we must let go of the life we planned so as to accept the life that is waiting for us." And, how different that life turns out to be.

Job seeking has not been the best. I mean, it's been an interesting time in life. Going through job postings, some of which make me want to vomit, and figuring out what it is that I can see myself doing for any length of time. Interesting that I used to use this same gauge as a dating method...if he didn't make me want to vomit, I'd accept a second date.

But, really, I'd like to go through life on a higher level than avoiding throwing up. You know? Isn't there a better way to exist? I mean, sure, it's nice not to throw up. But, really, I want to actually seek happiness in my existence and feel good about my life.

Every day I hear people complain about their lives. It doesn't really matter what they are up to. Maybe they are a student complaining about frustration with a professor. Maybe they are fed up with their job, for any number of reasons. Maybe they are unemployed. Maybe they are single and lonely. Maybe they are attached and at the end of their rope. Everyone has something they can grasp onto that makes them unhappy.

I've realized that as of late, I don't really complain that much (well, compared to how I've been in the past). And, that is something. I have to really search my life and my mind for those things to complain about. Maybe aiming to maintain this sort of existence...one without as much complaint...maybe that's a start.

For now, I'll continue by taking spin and yoga this evening. And brainstorming about exciting summer possibilities...