Applying. Myself.

March Madness. And, time to get this here show on the road.

This time off from working is weird. Funny how things change. I thought I'd do a whole bunch of soul searching. I mean, I suppose I have in some ways, but I've not come up with anything all that grand or innovative. I don't have money to travel, and have been feeling like if I picked up and left for a while, that would just be pressing a large pause button on the inevitable return to life. And, really, I like my life. And, I don't want to press pause.

Things I know:

1. I love Brooklyn. I do. I love it. I love being close to friends, I love being close to the park. I love walking/running everywhere. There are always new places to go and new faces to see. It is my home and I don't plan on leaving it any time soon. I just want to dig in deeper.

2. I LOVE my friends. I want to take them all and sleep in a pile. I used to think that I'd stop making friends at some point in my life. Like I also used to think that I'd stop liking new music. But, nothing ever stops. I am lucky and blown away by the amount of awesome people I have in my life.

3. I like to do stuff. I thrive on adventures. I want to go places, experience things, maintain a healthy and active lifestyle. I consider most things an adventure. Walking to Carroll Gardens this morning, every hash I go to. It's all an adventure.

4. I like to do nothing. Sometimes, I just want to sit around and not do much. At all.

5. I want to work. I have felt so uninspired lately and want to feel re-invigorated. I want to work somewhere that makes me feel proud. I want to be surrounded by smart, innovative wave-makers. I want to be part of a team.

6. I actually have no idea what lays ahead of me. I used to think that I knew what would happen. That there would be some conclusive life. I'd get married, have some kids. I just don't know now. And, that is OK. I can plan what I can plan. I like my calendar. But, I can't control everything. And life is always throwing surprises in the mix. And, they are good. Really good when I let myself enjoy them and pull me into them.

So, that's really it. Simple, really when you think about it. I'm going to attempt to get off my high horse and off my fences, cut the cliches out of my writing, and get over myself.

Today I applied for several jobs and will keep on keeping on. You never know what will happen. I am a house of glass and a stone-thrower. Life is coming up roses and I'm going to go for the low hanging fruit.